But I my works that are now posted in my gallery are outdated. The recent one... I never finished it. I'm shameful! I'm sorry. Due to time, money and management... also the lack of inspiration, would have led me to stop. A couple months ago, I was really about to give up on my career, I almost did. Manila had made me feel useless and worn out at some point in life. The cycle was endless and I getting sick of making me do the same old thing because they see that I am only good at it. I was not able to do other things I'd like to try but I always get told,
"You're never meant to design."
"You don't fit to be an interior designer, why not be a furniture designer instead?"
"You don't have taste in design."
"You have no talent about design."
It hurts but I let it go and just keep on doing my own thing. More technical as per specifications, documentations, project management, construction detailing and whatever, I am pretty strong with that. I believe that a great design in an interior will show upon the details. Technical details. A design well thought of. So I stumbled upon the ad for hiring other creatives last June from one of my most admired design idols, I took the risk. Never thought he'd picked me. I felt deeply honored.
I dropped everything I had started in Manila for 3 years with my career and then moved in Cebu.
No friends that I know.
No family to come home to.
I don't even know the language.
Back to square one. So far so good, I'm doing okay here away from the family and friends. Been living here almost three months now. It's a different kind of experience.
I am still thinking of updating or transfer to behance. haha But whatever will be, will be.
niumi / Nikka
PS: For industrial and interior design students who'd like to apply an internship, you may inquire because we're now accepting applicants. Apparently the website is still under construction and my boss's company is undergoing to a revamping from the catalogue, website, cards and stuff like that. Apply at firstname.lastname@example.org